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Saturday, July 12, 2003
The ride of Life- lovelife is really something. its a big,dangerous, long,fun, scarey ride, which we get on and we get off in due time. sometimes the twists and turns this ride called life takes are very unpredictable, but in most cases whether we like to admit it or not, we can be in control of what happens. however, sometimes the outcomes are not favourable at all. one turn life takes is love and boy there are many words to decribe this turn. both positive, eg. beautiful, heavenly, euphoric, de best ting since sliced bread etc. or they are the negative words to describe it, eg. bullshit, waste of time cause it hurts like a bitch anyways, its superficial ,....and the list goes on. for me i know i have had true love once, and i would not trade it for the world. i mean it was so much so, that i thought i would die if the person and i were to break up, that he was the air i breathed. we stayed together, and now that its over, its not so bad for me. maybe its because it was my decision to end it. thru no fault of his. because he is still my aorta, even tho i'm sure he doesnt believe that. i still love him and always will, but regardless of what ppl say. you CAN survive a breakup. the love may not be the same man and woman love, but it can take different forms not making it any less "real". i know alot of ppl going thru really rough breakups, and feeling like they will *never* get over the pain and thehurt. but you know what? one morning you will wake up and realise, it doesnt hurt so bad, you will realise, that while you needed that person in your life, for you to go about your daily functions, you CAN function without them. you can move on. you do not have to forget, but remember the good times, and learn from the bad times. love can be a beautiful thing from beginning to end. and we must no be so naive to believe that the "SAME" kind of love can last an eternity. the love can last for an eternity, yes, however, it can change to different forms. and we should realise that and enjoy the love. too many times we hold things against ppl, too much hatred in our hearts and thoughts. anyways, to those i have hurt, know i am sorry from the deepest part of my heart. to you u will always be my aorta, and i'll always love you, just right now, it cant be the way it was in the past. to all of those reading this, good luck to you on the wonderful ride of "life" and its twist *love* open heart • • • • • Free Fridaysyes nothing in life is free, however baje was tonight, and so were my drinks. heheheheh. i also won some sexy lingerie. AND i saw *Machel*, he getting fat and need to tidy up de beard, but nonetheless, he was there. Ms. Saw and i had a good time, but we missed Kiwi. i vise she does be too busy for us boh. and my lil young sauce was dere too, heheheheh. twas a nice night. even tho i would have liked to have some male company wid me constantly thru de night. but i survived. :) anyways, bedtime for me toodles survivor • • • • • Friday, July 11, 2003
work isn't bad. de department i working in full of christians, so no cussing or talking bout feting and ting, doan mind today i stamped thousands of tickets for kiddies kadooment, bacchanal time, east coast. i tell yuh, good thing my mother bring me up good, i woulda have free tickets for every event!!. otherwise it is cool. i got some young sauce there working wid me, he cute, but i doan like dem young, plus de boy always lying bout he age. he ranging it from 14 - 25, dis time he is only 17. but none the less he and his friend are loads of laughs.well i had a long blog to type, but now i think i going and sleep for baje tonight, soooo i'll hear or see you bloggers later. be safe • • • • • Thursday, July 10, 2003
xtreme on wednesdays is really good. although *renaldo* left cause he wasnt enjoying it, he was missed :(. not like he would believe that tho. ah well.i was a good girl, work in de a.m. see ya ... he says about me "acappela thoughts, no beat, no soothing melody, my song will surley deter her" hmmm,makes one wonder • • • • • Wednesday, July 09, 2003
work started officially yesterday and i am working at the "vat division". fellow blogger is working there as well. barbados small as so and so. its pretty cool tho. cant complain, at least i'll be gettin paid.... so i hate lil ppl that got alot to say on this they doan know anything about. if u doant know me, doant f*cking judge me. ... he says things to me that makes me wonder, should i "fall for it" or should i do what i'm doing right now and not take him on? hmmmm, decisions decisons. maybe for once, i should just enjoy the compliment and not try to analyze it. smile :D • • • • • Monday, July 07, 2003
well i went down to xtreme foam party at the last minute. i know a certain person will be most pissed but it was very fruitful for de i and i. freeness at its best1. got in xtreme free 2.got my baje pass for friday :) 3.got confirmation that if i want the baje costume it is mine 4.baje pass for every friday 5.baje shirt, *animaniaks* hot pants and hat will be received as the order arrives 6.baje costume for next year hehehehe, sorry, but unless i get a free px4 costume next year, i will be a traitor. HOWEVER until then, i'm a power by four girl. anyways, first day of work tomorrow, so i need to get to sleep. toodles • • • • • |
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