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Saturday, February 14, 2004
What is love?i often wonder about this 4 letter word which has such a great impact on our lives when it is said to us, or when it happens to cross our lips. what is it about that word that makes us have that "warm fuzzy feeling", makes us smile uncontrollably, makes us happy as a lark, carefree, euphoric, satified ... and the list goes on. but what is it about that word that can cause our hearts to break, our body to engulfed with pain caused by the very thought of the person that you love when the love goes bad. what is it about that word that causes us to make some of the stupidest mistakes ever. it causes us to have our head in the cloud, it causes us to be blinded and not see things as they really are. it causes us to accept the bad habits and "settle for it" because "we are in love". what is it about that word that causes us to think about that person morning, noon and night. is that really what love is? can we really define it?? can we say love is: *accepting ur lover just as he/she is flaws etc....or changing ur flaws to make ur lover happy. *being made to laugh so hard that you cry....or being hurt so bad you can do nothing but cry. *is it being weak enough to allow someone to have that "effect" on you....or is it being strong enough to let them do as they want to you because you love them. *is it thinking about someone ALL the time, although they are not yours...or is it being able to accept that it could never happen and get over it. if someone falls in love with you as you are, why then do they expect changes to be made after you are in a relationship. why should you change from the person they fell in love with? it makes no sense to me. i do not use that word anymore as i once did. there is one person i love, he knows it everyone knows it. but is saying the word good enough??? is making love good enough to make "love" work? i think first we need to understand what love is. it is so easy to define it when u talking about your favourite food or favourite song, but it isnt when it has to do with that special someone. maybe that word is supposed to be precious, but now it is tainted and perverted to a word that i am beginning to despise and beginning to feel that i will never be able to understand and never be able to give someone true love and i may never find it again, or find what i at least think it is. all of you who "are in love" and have found "true love", i am happy and sorry for you both at the same time. but maybe i am not ready for it as yet. it certainly isnt ready for me. • • • • • Thursday, February 12, 2004
(8)Nah nah nah nah nah jourvert(8)well god bless machel montano. he is a long and a strong performer :D. i am geared and hyped to go to carnival. i watched him perform on tv last night for the digicel launch, bajans are just to pathetic to enjoy a performer like him. i was at home in my short skirt getting on *disgusting* NOTE TO SELF never go out to a calypso show in a skirt. my sister said she will disown me. i will definitely HAVE to see him perform in trinidad, even if i only go to one fete, he better be at it. he really put a smile on th is girl's face. AND he lost real NAAAAAAAF weight, my goodness. he boney now,good lord. de waistline still wukking doh. everything in life happens or does not happen for a reason, we have no choice but to live with the outcome. what de hell is up wid this cold wind that does be blowing cross campus tho? last night i was freezing my backside off. i need to stop wearing short skirts in the evenings. i cut my hair, its just below my shoulders, but that is so short man, i here trying to wrap it in a bun, and its so short :'(. this short hair ting aint fuh me. anyways off to the gym to burn some energy. (8)put up alluh hand now(8) • • • • • Sunday, February 08, 2004
why bother with friendships when they doan work anyways? i've lost one and i am numb, but it is for the best. life goes on and i will as well. carnival is around the corner, right. i not even feeling it anymore. what the hell is wrong with me?!?! well no place like the house of the lord to start the week off on the right foot. i actually like going to church, calms me down, altho the choir at this church tonight cant sing, my goodness. it sounded like the nuns from sister act 1, before whoopie helped them out.and the soundtrack from brown sugar is the bomb, i need to get it (hint hint govie :)). anyways i need to pick myself up, a week and a half till i'm in trickibad swaying to the tunes, so comeon spirits, GET UP!!!! crying is good,right?! • • • • • |
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