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Thursday, June 24, 2004
i wish i were a caterpillar...that way no matter what life throws at me for the first part of it, i will turn into something soooo beautiful, REGARDLESS of my past. the only thing that can stop that metamorphasis from caterpillar to butterfly would be death. nothing else. if only life was that simple. if only the outcome of everything was ALWAYS a positive beautiful one. if only i could become a butterfly and fly away from here and go somewhere and be beautiful and free and at one with myself for the rest of my years. ah well *** so i need to start cleaning out my room and sorting out my clothes. those that still fitting. cause i put on weight. my thighs have gotten bigger, pants are going up past the hips, *sigh*. well when i go away i guess i workout alot, especially since i wont be shopping cause i have no funds. and the parental units provided the airfare. ah well small tings. i'll hit a few sales early so i wont have to worry about anything. *** it doesnt seem like i'll be missing much this year, cause the songs suck thus far. the only day i looking forward to is the jump up day. otherwise i not really too bothered. *sigh* . when i'm in canada i gonna miss my partner in "wine" if i end up partying. ok, i am going to look for something to eat, i havent eaten since my steak at 2 last evening. toodles Reminder: Boatyard 26th june 2004 $25 drinks free • • • • • Sunday, June 20, 2004
well that was anticlimatici went to px4 band launch and it was just alright. i mean last year i had a blast and my tush is on the net to prove that (along with her's and her's :P) however this year, the vibe just wasnt there. i shoulda gone in le club as was previously planned. i will know for future. altho i must say kiwi and i looked most cute in matching colours. i'm sure kiwi will put up pictures. and what the hell is it with black men and deodarant?? do u not like to wear it?? shit man, they had smell sooo bad. i mean neysa bop in de place smelling all yummy and ting, had on ralph, and dese musty ass men looking at me and coming to dance pun me. i aint give a shit, the look i give dem coulda kill they unborn grandchildren. they got the message. *** where is the eye candy in bim? my standard px4 eye candy wasnt dere tonight :'(. altho i did see the cute guy that kiwi and i were eyeing in kfc the other day. ah well too bad i only got one more week left b4 i go to canada. *** u know what is sad? when a girl has a man BUT is NEVER out with him. she is always out with other guys, she is deemed a slut.and yes most ppl think she is a slut. but when men does be out and about with other women whether or not his woman is there, it is all fine and dandy. *** so i didnt miss him for the whole night. only when i was leaving i saw him and it just pissed me right off, so much so i ignored him when he was calling out my name, two texts and a phone call later, he knows i'm upset, and i'm gonna have to talk to him tomorrow, but what will i say??hmmmm... ok, so i gonna go and wash the wares, or maybe i'll just go and sleep. Note to self: next saturday-moonshine at boatyard $25 drinks free, no power by 4 • • • • • |
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