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Tuesday, October 12, 2004
sometimes i get tired of being alone. i mean i am a third wheel when i go out with certain friends cause they all got men or women or flam as the case may be. doan get me wrong its all good, but still sometimes this single life is an egg. no one who HAS to call and find out how i doing. or HAS to make time at least once a week for us to spend time together.b4 i used to think about those fairytale ending kinda stories now i just feel it is all a bunch of bs and when i look at myself in 5, 10 ,15 years i cant see myself married or with anyone ,right now it looking like i gine be single for a real long time. sometimes i think i make ppl feel that i've had some real bad experiences that have left me scarred, but it is not that, i just doan wanna make silly mistakes and deal with the hurt, i am way too cautious, i am beginning to wonder if my over protectiveness of myself is keeping me back. but keeping me back from what??!?! is it that i am afriad of commitment? or is it that i am afraid that he may be lacking commitment?! but then again do i want a committed guy who treats me like crap and doesnt respect me? cause i mean, no use being committed to someone who doan respect you or treats u good. and then no use being with someone who treats you "good" but is not committed. i have no potentials at the moment. i am too picky, but i am not dropping my standards. i have way too many male friends and i know too much of their business to think of dropping my standard just cause i aint getting none. plus there aint nothing worthy for me to drop my standards anyways, and if there was i wouldnt have to drop them. i see so many "happy" couples out there. but you know what they may not actually be happy. on the outside looking in there is always a different story to what's on the inside. there are some couples that just make me sick to my stomach. and i want to say oh go find a hole and dont come out for 5 years. but why should they?! if they happy, then they shouldnt be afraid to show it and express it. and good for them that they are comfortable enough to show and express their feelings. ah well i am still young so i should have patience, and trust me Job about to get his title taken away. anyways a pork chop calling my name, nothing like some meat to put a smile on a girl's lips. toodles • • • • • Sunday, October 10, 2004
i had a friggin blast in xtreme tonight. i did not play big fashion. my ass was down dere sitting in de car from 9:30. i aint got de money to pay (saving for my trip) so i was lady number 20 something or so. and i had a great time in xtreme. i got on stink and i have no shame. i missed my two fav party partners for the calypso session winer gal 1 and winer gal 2 . but i did them justice. it was carnival 2k4 memories and me getting ready for carnival 2k5!!!!! i was drenched when i was done wukking my waist, boy i had fun. muwahahahahah. and so much waists for me to choose from to grind kill. *sigh* one great perk of being single. wukkup pun it then go home. his woman can deal with him. i just wanted a dance. heheheheh. seems to me there was some trouble in paradise haw haw haw (deep gut laugh) ah boy.*** hmmmm, i forgot the next point/ anyways that means i going in the shower then i going in my bed. gotta wash of all de waists from my body. ms. garlin signing out....and he single now. wooo hoooooo (8)snake oil ah snake oil ah snake oil gal....yuh circular hip momentum, rearing up like ah 'coptor, man want to wine on you but now yuh running by chi-ro-prac-tor, he falling down on de ground ppl dying wid laughter...(8) ps.belated bday greeting jenna, happy 18 bday hope u had fun tonight. first time i seeing the short cute hairdo. but that skirt she had on was nippy boy. lemme tell yuh, she make mine look decent :P • • • • • |
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