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Monday, August 08, 2005
The surgery is overI am assuming that all went well. Did not speak to the doctor before or after but no news is good news right?!?! This is definitely more painful than the last one. Maybe because it is stitches so I have to be extremely careful that I don't rip any of them open before they take off the bandage, which I believe is coming off next Wednesday. I need some comfort. All my friends away and the ones that are here are busy working :(. But then they have money so they can bring me chicken pasta with alfredo sauce,pesto,corn,sweet peppers and carrots from Cafe Blue (*HINT HINT*) :D. *** Life is full of twists and turns. Ever realise how not in control of your life you are. I mean when I was younger I had it all planned. I was going to be a jockey and win with my fast as light horse Sandford Prince, and I was going to be Whitney Housten cause boy could I sing. I was also going to be on the USA (I dont know why) Gymnastics team and win a gold medal. And to fall back on all of my careers, I'd have a little bakery on the side selling my world famous mud-pies with your choice of worms and ants, with special orders for beetles and the like. But now I am 21 and my life definitely isn't going according to my thoroughly thought-through and foolproof plans. Why are things so difficult now? Why can't I put on My Little Pony and immerse myself in it and then when it is finished all my worries are gone too? But then I guess I am an adult with big people problems and decisions to make and committments. The one committment that I have not been keeping is making sure that Neysa is happy. The surgery has dampened my spirit and has just added to all the little things going on in my brain. *** New Plan Longterm Six years from now: the breakdown Complete my BSc at Cave Hill with honours in two more years. Work for two years and take something valuable with me, not just a hefty paycheque. Then do my MBA in two years. Learn Spanish and move to Spain with my Neurosurgeon husband. Let's see how much of this I will achieve. Shortterm Bawl my head off when Ethan & Jaydon move to St.Lucia, but hopefully someone will give me a ticket for the weekend of my 22nd bday to go visit them :D. *WISHFULL THINKING. *** One of the hardest things for me to do is admit when someone has finished serving their purpose to me in my life and I have to say goodbye. Or when I finished serving my purpose to them and we have no more use for each other. We go our separate ways but I always miss the goodtimes. Good thing we have memories,right?! La dolce vita I can't remember what it means, but I like it. toodles • • • • • |
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